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[Aug. 29th, 2009|12:36 am]
This Is Really Now

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[a_potter]
[Location |Windowsill.]
[Mood |indescribable]
[I hear |Lily playing the recorder.]

I feel ill.


Scorpius. Where are you?


Can we...talk?
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[User Picture]From: sh_malfoy
2009-08-29 04:43 am (UTC)
Yes.

Just...give me a second to find my cloak.
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[User Picture]From: a_potter
2009-08-29 04:43 am (UTC)
Okay.

Where can you go?
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[User Picture]From: sh_malfoy
2009-08-29 04:44 am (UTC)
Anywhere. Where do you want to meet me?
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[User Picture]From: a_potter
2009-08-29 04:45 am (UTC)
How about that tree? The one with my sister's dodgy treehouse on?
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[User Picture]From: sh_malfoy
2009-08-29 04:45 am (UTC)
Okay. I'll be right there.
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[User Picture]From: a_potter
2009-08-29 04:46 am (UTC)
I'm here. It's warm out.
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[User Picture]From: sh_malfoy
2009-08-29 04:47 am (UTC)
Hello.
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[User Picture]From: a_potter
2009-08-29 04:47 am (UTC)
Hi.

How are you?
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[User Picture]From: sh_malfoy
2009-08-29 04:48 am (UTC)
A bit off-footed, if we're being honest, which I get the feeling we are. You?
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[User Picture]From: a_potter
2009-08-29 04:49 am (UTC)
The same.

I'm sorry. I just...I don't know what to do.
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[User Picture]From: sh_malfoy
2009-08-29 04:50 am (UTC)
What to do about...what, Al?
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[User Picture]From: a_potter
2009-08-29 04:58 am (UTC)
This.

Us.

This nightmare we've seemed to have landed in.
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[User Picture]From: sh_malfoy
2009-08-29 05:00 am (UTC)
Al, I didn't mean to do this.

What do you want me to do?
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[User Picture]From: a_potter
2009-08-29 05:02 am (UTC)
I...I don't know. I don't want to be afraid of your surname. I don't want you to be afraid of mine.

And...and I'd like to be able to spend a week apart without feeling like complete crap the entire time.
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[User Picture]From: sh_malfoy
2009-08-29 05:04 am (UTC)
I don't know how to fix that.
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[User Picture]From: a_potter
2009-08-29 05:04 am (UTC)
I don't think we can.
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[User Picture]From: sh_malfoy
2009-08-29 05:07 am (UTC)
Well, then what?


If you're trying to tell me you don't want to do this for reasons that I can't control, then say it, Albus.
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[User Picture]From: a_potter
2009-08-29 05:08 am (UTC)
You can control some of them, Scorpius. You're just not willing to even fucking try.
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[User Picture]From: sh_malfoy
2009-08-29 05:11 am (UTC)
I did the best I could, and it's not good enough for you.

For Circe's sake, Albus, who the fuck did you think you were dating for four years?
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[User Picture]From: a_potter
2009-08-29 05:12 am (UTC)


I know who I've been fucking dating, Scorpius. Sometimes I wonder if you're the one who's forgetting.
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[User Picture]From: sh_malfoy
2009-08-29 05:13 am (UTC)
Forgetting what, exactly?
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[User Picture]From: a_potter
2009-08-29 05:14 am (UTC)
Forgetting who you are to me.
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[User Picture]From: sh_malfoy
2009-08-29 05:17 am (UTC)
I'm your fucking boyfriend, Albus. That's all I've ever wanted from you. I never asked you to be anything but what you are. I never asked you to give me more than you thought you could give.

That's all I'll ever want from you.

I'm sorry that I can't make this easy, but I don't know how.
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[User Picture]From: a_potter
2009-08-29 05:20 am (UTC)
I don't know how either, but that's a problem, don't you see?

This whole thing. It isn't fucking fair! It kills me that my parents aren't allowed to know you, and it feels like crap knowing yours don't want to know me.

I feel like I'm leading a double life and I just...I don't want to be. We have no reason to resigning ourselves to it.
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[User Picture]From: sh_malfoy
2009-08-29 05:23 am (UTC)
I told you I'd try.

Please don't do this.

No, you're right. No reason other than the fact that I love you. I guess I was...wrong about how you felt.

Just do it, then, Al.
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