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Hey. [Oct. 6th, 2013|08:53 pm]
This Is Really Now

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[james_sirius]
[Mood |tiredtired]
[I hear |Teddy]

Sorry I'm home so late. The trainers kept me for a bit after everyone else left. They think I'm getting fat or something.


How are you feeling? How were Charlotte and Louise?
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[User Picture]From: teddy_remus
2013-10-07 12:55 am (UTC)
You're not fat! That's terrible.
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[User Picture]From: james_sirius
2013-10-07 01:00 am (UTC)
I'm just all fat.
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[User Picture]From: teddy_remus
2013-10-07 01:02 am (UTC)
You're not.

You're all muscle, is what you are.


Charlotte and Louise are doing well. It was really nice to spend time with them. Charlotte left us to playtime for a bit while she worked on an article.
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[User Picture]From: james_sirius
2013-10-07 01:05 am (UTC)
I'm some percentage fat they were all...on about it.


Good.

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[User Picture]From: teddy_remus
2013-10-07 01:06 am (UTC)
Everyone is some percentage fat, James.


Don't be worried.
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[User Picture]From: james_sirius
2013-10-07 01:08 am (UTC)
I'm not.

S'better stuff to be worried about.
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[User Picture]From: teddy_remus
2013-10-07 01:11 am (UTC)
Was training alright, apart from that?
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[User Picture]From: james_sirius
2013-10-07 01:13 am (UTC)
Yeah. Pretty much. I-- I just don't want to be there, though, you know? Even when I'm flying.
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[User Picture]From: teddy_remus
2013-10-07 01:15 am (UTC)
No?

Flying doesn't help?
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[User Picture]From: james_sirius
2013-10-07 01:19 am (UTC)




No. It's-- I need to be with you.
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[User Picture]From: teddy_remus
2013-10-07 01:21 am (UTC)



Oh, James.


I know.

It's okay. I'm okay.
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[User Picture]From: james_sirius
2013-10-07 01:28 am (UTC)
I know. But I just-- I keep playing it all over in my head.

And I keep thinking, whenever someone walks up to me, that they're going to tell me that something horrible's happened to you. Or whenever-- whenever I get an Owl, even though I know you're upstairs my heart skips a beat because I'm worried that it's delivering bad news--
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[User Picture]From: teddy_remus
2013-10-07 01:34 am (UTC)
Hey.

Look. I'm right here. I'm okay.

And I know there's been times--multiple times now, when I haven't been. And I know how hard that's been on you. But I'm here now, James. I'm fine. You can go to work and leave me, and I will still be fine when you get home, yeah?
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[User Picture]From: james_sirius
2013-10-07 01:43 am (UTC)
But---but you weren't fine and it keeps happening.
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[User Picture]From: teddy_remus
2013-10-07 01:44 am (UTC)
I--


I know.
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[User Picture]From: james_sirius
2013-10-07 01:48 am (UTC)
I'm supposed to be the one in danger! I'm the one with the stupid job, and-- and the reckless behaviour, and all of the-- you know, Potter things-- not-- not you.
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[User Picture]From: teddy_remus
2013-10-07 01:52 am (UTC)
You're not, James. You're not stupid or reckless.


Neither of us are.

And sometimes things happen anyway. Things you can't control, and it's frightening--It's terrifying to feel like your life is out of your control.

But all I can do--all either of us can do is move on together and try to be careful.

They were freak accidents, James. Not...not Romania.

But the rest.
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[User Picture]From: james_sirius
2013-10-07 01:53 am (UTC)
I would like for it to please stop.
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[User Picture]From: teddy_remus
2013-10-07 01:56 am (UTC)
Me, too.



It will, James. I'm getting better now. It will.
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[User Picture]From: james_sirius
2013-10-07 01:57 am (UTC)
I'm sorry-- I-- I'm okay, Teddy. You don't need to worry about this.
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[User Picture]From: teddy_remus
2013-10-07 02:05 am (UTC)
You're not worrying me, James. We're just talking.

And, if you weren't upset, frankly I'd be a little worried.
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[User Picture]From: james_sirius
2013-10-07 02:07 am (UTC)
Okay.

Do I have to go to work tomorrow?
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[User Picture]From: teddy_remus
2013-10-07 02:10 am (UTC)
I don't want to force anything, but you probably should if you feel able.




James, you've done so much for me, but I don't want you to feel trapped here. I've been doing fine while you're out. Charlotte's been so good to me--Everyone has. And I miss you--like I always do--but I feel fine.
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[User Picture]From: james_sirius
2013-10-07 02:15 am (UTC)
I don't feel trapped, Teddy. It's just difficult being gone from you.
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[User Picture]From: teddy_remus
2013-10-07 02:17 am (UTC)
Well, that I understand. I don't like being without you, either.

I'm proud of you, though, for going. It's hard and you've been so brave.
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[User Picture]From: james_sirius
2013-10-07 02:19 am (UTC)
Thanks.
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[User Picture]From: teddy_remus
2013-10-07 02:20 am (UTC)
And then, when you come home, we get to have a bit of a cuddle, which is my favorite part of you having been away.
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[User Picture]From: james_sirius
2013-10-07 02:22 am (UTC)
Yeah. That's true.
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[User Picture]From: teddy_remus
2013-10-07 02:24 am (UTC)
You're doing so well, James, given what you've been through. Don't beat yourself up.



And maybe I can come to a match soon. I'd like that.
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[User Picture]From: james_sirius
2013-10-07 02:25 am (UTC)
We'll see.
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[User Picture]From: teddy_remus
2013-10-07 02:26 am (UTC)
I'll behave.
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[User Picture]From: james_sirius
2013-10-07 02:27 am (UTC)
Mmm.


Are you hungry?
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[User Picture]From: teddy_remus
2013-10-07 02:28 am (UTC)
A bit. I was given a biscuit by Louise on the sly.
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[User Picture]From: james_sirius
2013-10-07 02:36 am (UTC)
That's good. LEt me get us some dinner though, yeah?
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[User Picture]From: teddy_remus
2013-10-07 02:38 am (UTC)
Thanks, James.

Can I...Well, not give you a hand, precisely. But maybe keep you company?
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[User Picture]From: james_sirius
2013-10-07 02:39 am (UTC)
Sure.
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[User Picture]From: teddy_remus
2013-10-07 02:41 am (UTC)
Stop me from being just entirely a baby bird that you look after?
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[User Picture]From: james_sirius
2013-10-07 02:42 am (UTC)
You are far more functional than a baby bird.

Plus, I don't actually chew up your food for you. That would just be weird.
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[User Picture]From: teddy_remus
2013-10-07 02:44 am (UTC)
I am...slightly more functional than a baby bird.

Ah, yes. How silly of me. That would finally cross the line into weird.
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[User Picture]From: james_sirius
2013-10-07 02:46 am (UTC)
I'll do it, you know. Don't tempt me.
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[User Picture]From: teddy_remus
2013-10-07 02:47 am (UTC)
You are slightly deranged. In the most lovable of all possible ways.
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[User Picture]From: james_sirius
2013-10-07 02:48 am (UTC)
I try.
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[User Picture]From: teddy_remus
2013-10-07 02:49 am (UTC)
I know, pumpkin. I know.
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